Face book Post: January 12, 2010

Dear Dad,
I wish you were here with me today to tell me what I should do. To tell me where I should go. You always gave great advice and helped in more ways then you ever could have known. I can’t stop thinking about you. All the memories we shared and all the things you use to say to me, they keep replaying in my head. I know its part of life for people to die but it doesn’t take away all of the pain and sorrow that fills my heart each and every day. I tell mom that it’s ok, that you are right there with her. I tell her that only time will heal her pain and that you would want her to continue on with her life. All the things I tell her are to help her feel better but the truth is, all the things I tell her are what I am struggling with myself. We say things to help us feel better but the pain and hurt are still there. It’s like someone has put my heart into a blender. Over and over again and there is nothing I can do to stop them. I don’t think that I will ever stop saying how much I miss and love you. Those words will be in every post, come out of my mouth every day and never leave my heart. I look forward to the day when we will meet again and I can give you the biggest hug in the world.
I love you Daddy!
Jenny